Story #1: The Essence of the Universe0
Ok, I’ll go first, and what better story than the story of my very first plant medicine experience?
Well, in the moments leading up to the (Ayahuasca) ceremony, I found some quiet space and meditated to get my head in the right space, and as I walked down the hill towards the maloka where this was about to happen, it was so surreal! I couldn’t believe this was actually happening after all this time!
Such excitement, wonder, trepidation, and respect, all intertwined!
Well, fast forward to taking my first drink. It didn’t taste good, but it was far from being the nightmarish taste that many people had described (which from I can tell depends on who’s preparing it, what ingredients they add, and how much care they put into de-barking the vine, amongst other things).
And I was surprised at how quickly afterward a conversation started happening in my head (which I estimate was about 15 minutes after I drank).
My memory of the exact details and structure of the following conversation are slightly hazy, but I clearly remember the important parts that went something along these lines.
I thought to myself ‘Wait a minute, am I talking to myself?’ And the voice in my head goes ‘Nooo you’re not! I am Mother Ayahuasca.”
“Well…I’ve heard the term before, but I don’t understand. I have a mother.”
“The person you know as your mother is your physical mother, but I am your spiritual mother.”
“Okay…. Well, what are you?”
“I am the essence of the universe.”
*Mind blown already*
I’m a little hazy on the conversation immediately afterward, though I remember it had something to do with essences of things.
And then at one point she said, “I just want you to know that I love you, and you deserve to be loved,” which brought tears to my eyes and triggered something inside of me.
And I said “I…I love you to…but I don’t understand. I feel like we just met, so how can I love you?”
“That’s because we know each other from not only this life but past lives as well.”
Mind you, I’ve never even believed in past lives before this, and I’m still not sure what exactly I believe about them. But it’s a detail like that which makes me think that this wasn’t just made up in my head by my subconscious.
Even if it were, as long as I received lessons from it, I would argue that it’s still just as valuable, but sometimes you experience things that seem like just couldn’t have possible been made up because they so utterly boggle your mind.
Anyway, I could go on and on about various experiences, but I’ll just leave this little snippet as Part 1 of what has turned out to be a very lengthy journey of learning and exploration, which no doubt is still ongoing. One that changed my life very profoundly and eventually lead to me starting this website (AyaAdvisors).
I hope this inspires you to share your own stories, snippets, and/or lessons and snippets you learned while in the medicine 🙂