In an article I read recently, one man talks about his healing experience with Ayahuasca with several war veterans.
I had come across many reports on the therapeutic potentials of ayahuasca, but the evidence was always limited, and debatable. I felt that somehow the current glorification of the therapeutic potentials of ayahuasca was a direct result of the process of demonization of hallucinogens. Because mainstream society tends to discredit these experiences so much, a quasi-apologetic counter-discourse on their benefits popped all over the place.
Later on, he shares a few of the details of what it was like to be in a ceremony with the vets:
One of them cried and screamed the whole session. He rocked back and forth, like a child. He also whispered, and talked to himself. He made guttural and profound sounds for hours, which were kind of disturbing. These sounds seemed to come from another world.
After the first ceremony, he shared with me some war stories, his panic while in the field, having to shoot, and seeing ahead only women and children, smoke, fire, buildings falling down, chaos. He told my friend a vision that constantly haunted him: a frozen black burnt body with the arms outstretched, like a statue.
A haunting image to say the least, and almost certainly a mere shadow of the full extent of the trauma we inflict on these men and women by sending them to far-off places to commit such inhuman acts under the guise of patriotism. And yet when they get home, we abandon them – a true shame on our country if ever there was one. If we can send them off to war, we sure-as-hell should be able to afford to take care of them when they come back home.
The thought that, at least between 1999 and 2010, one U.S. war veteran committed suicide every 65 minutes.
That. Is just…staggering.
And it’s my hope that one of those vets finds this article and that it lights a flicker of hope in their weary souls.
I’m here to tell you that, as crazy as it might sound, I spoke to Mother Ayahuasca personally, and she helped me heal my pain.
I was torn to shreds inside, and it’s not as though she waved a magic wand and *poof* it was all gone.
Instead, I’ll just share some of the very first words we ever had, that will follow me until the day I die.
She said, “I just want you to know that I love you, you deserve to be loved, and you deserve to be happy.”
Even today, a year and a half later, it brings tears to my eyes repeating those words. And I share this with you because I want you, the reader, to know that if you’re feeling torn to shreds inside too – if your heart and your soul aches – these plant teachers have helped heal people for thousands of years (and undoubtedly more, in my opinion).
Mother Ayahuasca, whom I hold dear to my heart, is just one of those plant teachers, and I strongly urge you that, if you’re reading this article, you’ve already heard her calling you, though it may not seem so literal to you.
Please, if you seek help, find Mother Ayahuasca. She will tell you like it is and help you get your head on straight. She won’t tell you what you want to hear, but she’ll tell you what you need to hear.
And if you have the courage and strength to put those lessons into practice, you can become whole again. I know it, deep down. Because even though your trauma may not equal mine, I’ve experienced it firsthand.
Mine was such a life-changing experience that I quit my corporate IT job, moved to South America, and volunteered at an Ayahuasca retreat center to help other people find experiences just like the one that I had.
And after I’ve had the honor and the privilege to help in some small way what I calculate to be at least 300 people who crossed my path there, I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that absolutely no one is so far gone that they were beyond her help.
I can’t emphasize strongly enough that, unlike what I thought when I was first a guest at one of these places, Mother Ayahuasca (she actually told me that she prefers not to be called “Mama Aya” as I once did) is not some fairy godmother that exists to grant you wishes.
There is no magic wand, and I’m here to tell you that your healing will take effort on your part.
I’ve seen all manner of trauma that needed healing, whether it be chemical dependency, sexual abuse, PTSD, or any other number of things, but I can tell you that everyone who stuck with the program and didn’t decided to leave early, which was sadly the case in about 2-5% of the people who attended, received loving, life-changing, insightful advice from a being that, as far as I can tell, exists solely to do such a thing.
There’s so much more I want to tell you, but for the moment, I want to quickly share the rest of this man’s story.
The ceremonies were concluded with “integration circles.” Normally, I do not like this kind of thing … However, this time, it was a joy to hear the vets’ stories. They were very grateful to the experience. I felt the urge to hug one guy after he spoke, and did so, which he reciprocated for a long time, in silence. One of the vets was hugging other men in the room, telling them how much he loved them.
I left the retreat feeling positive: yes, definitely, ayahuasca can help war veterans!
And so this man is just one more voice in a growing choir of stories from all around the world that’s saying “Yes, Ayahuasca can help you! Come see for yourself!”
And that’s why I so strongly urge you, don’t take my word for it – I know how far-off this stuff can sound from an outside perspective. That’s why I believe that, if you feel Ayahuasca is right for you, then you need to explore it for yourself. Don’t believe anything because people say it’s true. Instead, all you have to do is suspend your skepticism, be open to the experience, and see for yourself.
I can’t wait to share so much more with you through this website, but in the meantime, I’ll close by telling you that this website exists solely to help people just like you find the healing that you seek.
It exists because reviews that were shared with me helped me find a safe and reputable Ayahuasca center, and I want to pay that forward, just as I did cleaning out puke buckets and helping people to the bathroom.
Because, as encouraging as it is to see awareness of plant medicines growing around the globe, there’s also a human element involved, and sadly, some people try to take advantage of people like you and me who are seeking out this healing.
Some are out to get our money, and in a couple rare cases that I’ve heard of, young women are taken advantage of in such a vulnerable state. And in some cases, people claiming to be shamans add things to the Ayahuasca brew, such as Toé, to give ‘tourists’ a bang for their buck. And although one cannot die from Ayahuasca, you can in fact overdose on Toé. And that’s why it’s critically important that, if you are considering such a journey, that you find a safe and reputable place to do it at.
And that’s why a place like this needs to exist, so that people can share their experiences with others in order to help them know their own firsthand experiences and hopefully avoid any pitfalls in the process.
So, please, if this site is a helpful resource to you – and I truly hope that it is – please consider returning after you’ve gone on your own journey to share your experiences with those who come after you. It’s just as important to share any negatives as it is to share positives, and honesty is of the utmost importance.
Please take advantage of all the helpful reviews that have been left on this site, and think of them as lights on your path. Each person’s path is different, just as each retreat center offers its own unique experience, and it’s important that you find the one that’s the perfect fit for you.
And if I can help you in any way, please reach out either in the comments below or by emailing me here. I’m here to help you in any way that I can, and one last piece of advice I received from Mother Ayahuasca that I’d like to share with you is that, for me to be happy, I need to do things that make my heart feel fulfilled. And I can assure you that helping you find the healing that you seek will do just that 🙂
More on that later, but for now, here’s sending as much love, light, and positivity out into the universe as I can muster!
I love you; you deserve to be loved; and you deserve to be happy 🙂