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It has been 5 days since my retreat. The intensity of processing and integrating my thoughts and feelings is still pretty strong. I had a wonderful time at SoulQuest. Making strong connections with people instantaneously was refreshing; this was a pleasant surprise, definitely not at all expected. The staff at SoulQuest is very caring and prompt. Not once I felt manipulated or influenced by anyone. SoulQuest showed me direction but the Quest was all mine. Thank you.
The taste of the medicine is awful but the gift it gives is wonderful. Ayahuasca gave me clarity so my mind would understand what bothers me. Then at night, it took me into an agony that lead into catharsis through vomiting, symbolically and literally. The experience gave me the epiphany that suppressed emotions can be released only if I desperately want it with every single particle of what makes me: letting go. Easy to say hard to do. I guess that is why it is called a Quest.
5 days after the retreat I am realizing that this medicine is affecting every single aspect of my life. After catharsis, I do not want any poison in me. I am taking care of myself. I’ve stopped mindlessly and continuously browsing the internet and instead, use it as a tool when I have a clear purpose. I’ve become more tuned into my family. Before this experience, I passively, half-heard what was being said to me, now I am really, actively listening and understanding. I’ve made changes to my children’s routines cutting their exposure to the internet and devices and really connecting with them. Last evening, it was gratifying to notice they didn’t ask once for devices. At night, instead of watching TV I am taking a walk. My mind is clear, I’m enjoying being in the moment and I feel a reassurance that this is the way it’s supposed to be.
Ayahuasca has taught me a valuable lesson. I am not only my consciousness but more. There are things that are out of my reach and control that should be included to make me whole. Like intuition, dreams and my feelings. If I go against them I’m in hell. To get into heaven I have to go to Purgatory and purge. Something is navigating me through life and that is okay. That is what I am: Body, Mind, and Spirit. I feel complete. I can hear myself breathing.