Dark Sparks's Reviews
I want to add some balance to the reviews that are posted here. What follows is my opinion, which is based on my experience of the 12 day retreat at the temple in August 2015. I chose to attend the temple after much time spent researching and considering the many options that are available. I decided on the temple based on the glowing endorsements from previous clients and the reviews available online. To me, the temple seemed to offer the safest and most reassuring environment to explore the possibilities of working with Ayahuasca. This was really important to me, as I wanted to be in the good hands when trying something that I had absolutely no experience with, in a foreign country I had no real knowledge of and in the middle of the jungle. So what can I say? I have two points of focus that inform my review. 1. The temple, staff and shamans 2. My personal experience of working with Ayahuasca. On the first, I found in which the way the temple was run to be very efficient, smooth and organised. The program ran on time, we were Informed when events would happen, what they involved and of any changes that were being made. The food was great, vegetarian and wholesome. The staff were helpful and a pleasure to talk to. The accommodation was basic but comfortable. It is the middle of the jungle after all, it isn’t the four seasons and I think people have to allow for that. The shamans that we worked with were very kind, warm and respectful. There were five in total, 3 woman and 2 men. They didn’t speak much English, but they were always smiling, laughing and welcoming. 2 My personal experience with ayahuasca has to rate as one of the most awful and terrifying experiences I have endured. Apart from the first ceremony, we attended 7 in total, each ceremony was like going through hell for me. I felt more fragile and vulnerable after every ceremony. With each ceremony, I just wanted the whole experience to end, I was cast into a place where I had to do everything in my power to remain present and to a embrace what was unfolding. Terror, Panic, Fear, Exhaustion, Isolation this is how I felt. With every trip I felt worse and worse. Yet I was reassured and encouraged that this is what it can be like and that it was in the service of my healing. In such a state a person is vulnerable, easily influenced and uncertain of their own better judgement. I had travelled a long way, spent a lot of money to get myself to this place and was desperate for healing. I was determined to give the process a fair chance. Yet during every ceremony I found myself saying to myself if I survive this experience, that this will be enough and never again will I subject myself to such turmoil. And yet, after the ceremony, waking the next day and listening to the incredibly positive experiences of my fellow voyagers and the encouragement of the Temple staff I found myself drifting into the next ceremony with the desperate hope that this one would somehow be different. It wasn’t and they weren’t. In hindsight, I would have done no more than two ceremonies. This stuff is incredibly powerful and not to be taken lightly. My advice to anyone considering Ayahuasca is to really consider very carefully the implications of what you are agreeing to, hope can sometimes outweigh better judgement as in my case. Please also keep in mind that for every positive review that you read about ayahuasca there are as many if not more reviews that don’t get written that may have the very opposite opinion. It can seem that when a person begins to research the possibility of attending an ayahuasca ceremony one can be forgiven that it is the hidden solution for all of humankind’s problems. In my experience it is not, I believe it can be potentially helpful for some people and potentially damaging for other people. Consider with caution the use of Ayahuasca. On a final note regarding the temple of the way of light. I felt like the place was like a business, which is strange because the shamans and the staff were very friendly. I can’t quite put my finger on it other than the place lacked a sense of it being a home, something was missing. It felt like people were working there rather than living there.