A few weeks ago me and my girlfriend participated in a San Pedro ceremony with Steve and Darby in the countryside surrounding Cuenca.
With the medicine i found that i had been carrying intense emotions of anger, fear, sadness, and abandonment that i had to let go of to move forward. i recognize now that one of the most important parts of the process of healing is to let go of your personal history. i’ve been carrying a lot of emotions from my childhood that without the medicine i would have been unable to confront. I’m also in the process of letting go of the pressures that my parents put onto me. For me the medicine was tough because there was a lot prohibiting my love for myself and for every other being in the world and it showed me i couldn’t live without that love anymore. The time since the ceremony has been transformative for me and i can feel that love growing within me everyday. everyday my mind is more in tune with my heart. plant medicine with the right guide is beautiful process because the heightened consciousness doesn’t let you return to how you were.
I understand now that my chronic problems with my throat and nose were rooted deeply in a dis-ease of my spirit. everyday those parts of my body are healing as i let go of stubborn resentment, learn how to speak like a free man, and remember that i love and accept this life and i’m not a victim. my soul is never permanently scarred.
Steve was fundamental in helping me understand everything i’ve just described and i look forward to continuing the journey with him in the future. there was a moment when i didn’t know how to move forward with what i had seen and felt and i remember steve said “with love.” it was a pivotal moment in my life as i remembered that’s all i got to give.
my time with the medicine was unique but it served my intentions to heal what i needed to heal. if you are open to the medicine it will help you with whatever you need help with. i’m blessed to have found San Pedro Steve and Darby.