I went to Erik and Nilda because of a wonderful recommendation from a friend of mine who had done several retreats with them. I had always been curious about Ayahuasca though wanted a sacred safe place to really explore it and myself. Erik and Nilda couldn’t have been a better fit for me.
I am a healer and have been for most of this life. I have had many stumbling blocks along my path. There has been so much loss and change in my life. I was feeling very confused, wondering who I am, what, and where am I to go and be from here.
The feeling of sacredness that I felt upon meeting Erik and Nilda was incredibly heart opening. Their home is more of a sanctuary of Beingness. It is the perfect place for comfort and peace. I felt safe and able to truly open to where Ayahuasca could take me. It’s interesting because on reflecting I feel like it is Erik and Nilda that make their home this way. No matter where they are it will be a sacred sanctuary for self exploration.
The food was spectacular. I am not vegetarian although I have done many cleanses and healing retreats where the food options are vegetarian, vegan, and raw so I am familiar with vegetarian food. Nilda; however, took my palate to places I have not experienced before. The textures and flavors were magnificent. I did not miss meat at all. Every meal was incredibly satisfying.
Here is a moment from my writings while I was at this retreat:
“It is fascinating moving from one dimension to another while having a hold on this dimension. Trying to get comfortable in a seated position, knowing where the vomit bucket is at all times even in the complete darkness, and semi aware of the others in the room. It’s all a part of the experience…the fullness of this expression is expanding into my reality. It is all a part of IT ALL.
When Erik lights the candle and breaks the darkness his face is illuminated. He looks just like the magikal shaman that he is. His long curly black hair is framing his face. His expression is filled with wonder. I would love to capture this moment and remember it forever. As I reflect I wonder how much of our experiences he has traveled and witnessed. Nilda is in the back corner almost like an anchor to our journeys. She is so beautiful. Her long black curly hair is framing her round face. They are both timeless and so beautiful. Their Spirits shine so bright and their hearts are so open. Ayahuasca has truly transformed them creating their journey and mission of helping others. “
Releasing judgment of oneself is quite a liberating experience. Thank you Mama Ayawaska for helping me with that. Thank you thank you thank you. Here I am, all of me, and I can and do love me. Peru and its elevation and expansive grandeur seemed to knock down every wall I might have built to protect me. Ah Peru. I love you.
Thank you Erik and Nilda for facilitating this openness and expansiveness that I am now learning to create in my every day life. Life has shifted. For your sharing, offerings of illumination and insights I will always be grateful. I look forward to the potential of returning to learn more from you both.